Burying my Mother-in-law was worst day of my Life!

Update!!!
Monday at 11:am we buried my Mother-in-law in the Muslim tradition and according to her wishes.  I have to say this was the hardest and most emotional day I have ever had.  I have buried my own father and my great-grandmother, my grandmother and my grandma whom I loved with all my heart.  But this burial was like nothing I have ever experienced before and do not want to ever experience again.  What we had to do was just to emotional and heart breaking to say the very least.  We had to stand by the grave site and watch as my husband and his brother physically open the casket and move there mother's body and face her toward Mecca and then proceed to put a hand full of dirt next to her face (which signifies from dirt we came and from dirt we will return) My heart was breaking from the pain of watch my husband having to do this to his mother as was his heart at having to do it.  Then the male members of our family including my son had to lift the casket and place it over the grave where they then brought the dump trucks fill with dirt were we then had to take shovels and start to shovel the dirt on top of her.  My god this was such an emotional stress you would not believe on our family.  It seemed so harsh and almost unbearable to watch.  Most of us have been to funerals where as you go to the cemetery and they have a little service and then you leave and the casket is still above ground.  How spoiled we are.  They way we buried my Mother-in-law was in fact the real way people have died and there family had to face it and bury them by there selves.  My husband and I have long ago decided to be cremated and this just make the choice so much easier for us.  I do not want to be buried in the ground and have my kids experience this again.  I just needed to share this with someone and to get these feelings out.  I would like to Thank each and everyone of you who have sent me messages of your condolences,  it really meant a lot to me during this rough time of my life and it have been a rough couple of months let me tell you.  I have not been the best of friends lately and for that I do apologize.  I am on the mend and now that this worst of times is now past and we can start the healing process I hope I get my inspiration back.   





This is my Lovely Mother-in-Law.  She passed away today at 11:00am.   She has been in the nursing home and hospital for the last 3 years after falling and breaking her back she just went down hill from there.  She was almost 90 years old and lead a full and active life.  She was blessed with wonderful children, and grandchildren.  She traveled and lived a Happy Life.  She was well Loved.  It was a long and painful road to her final moment and has been very hard on the family.   We hated seeing her go from the woman who went everywhere even if it was to the store to being stuck in the nursing home not being able to walk.   She loved life and clung to it to her very last breath.   God Rest in peace my dear Mother-in-Law.